For the last 2 years I have poured everything I have into my teams in Forney and Wylie. On March 5th that was all swept out from under me. I’ve been humbled and brought to my knees to see that was the problem… I had no ounce left in my cup to pour out from. While anxiety of the unknown has loomed overhead for the last month, God continues to provide and I’ve been allowed to hold space for God where I wasn’t finding time for him before. What started with a couple of verses has led to a larger wall of scriptures, prayers, and sayings that have either comforted me during this season in my life, or allowed my eyes to open to where I need to trust and lay my life down further.

Holy 2×4 for sure! My eyes and heart have most definitely been opened to the areas of bondage I’ve held in my life. I would be lying if I said I’m 100% “healed”. Nope, I’m as broken as they come and I’ve been stripped down to nothing, but gosh it’s been so healing! So many blessings in the messiness of life! They may not be physical blessings, but the spiritual, mental, and emotional blessings that impacted me far greater than the physical blessings could ever.

To say I’ve had a lot of time on my hands is the understatement of the century, but that one thing I haven’t done is “sit still”. I’m in the Word every morning before I get out of bed and right after my morning coffee. My Life Group is amazing and I’ve been able to pour into them. Prioritizing what actually matters has been life changing. Now, when God gets me where he has plans for me (in my career that is), my new struggle will be holding fast to the boundaries I’ve built and sticking to prioritizing me so I have the ability to pour into others.

I’ve been able to start (and am still in the midst of) a Bible study with my sister by Beth Moore called “Breaking Free”. The one nugget from the start of week 4 that I’ll leave you with to pray over is this: “God, change my ‘want to’!” Two reasons why we don’t “take the exit” to walking away from sin are because 1) We don’t want to 2) We don’t feel like we deserve to. I pray you’re able to activate the relationship you’re needing to have with Jesus!